the trail i leave behind

during orientation there was this session where they asked you to put your fears of college on the board.  People feared fitting in, gaining weight, and growing up, but i'm worried about my friends and family. They are so use to me being there to solve every single problem that needs to be solved and relying on me. I watch my friends and realize that they are falling apart, but i cannot step in because they need to learn to solve their problems on their own. they need to learn that everything doesn't require them to cry over. They need to solve it as if i never existed. As for my mother and brother, they tend to blame me for things that would and should be their fault. Maybe this summer i will prepare them for me to be miles away and for them to learn how to depend on themselves before i leave a trail of dependence behind on my way to college